ah the same

seems like too many projects, too little time attention and motivation.

i feel like i spread myself too thin, and when i simplify, i lack adequite means of expression. i suppose that this process will continue until i refine my own process.

a group of engaged and interested peers would be nice, but this day and age- we're all grown up, and wrapped up in the all to real concerns of every day life.

at times it feels easy to cave to self-dissolusionment. life takes time, but it's over quick. i suppose i just simplify, innovate, stagnate, repeat.


my family is moving to another state. it's shaken me a bit i suppose.

art, creativity.

seems lost from me lately, but looking at me from very close- just close enough that i know it's there. that i need to find a new way to create my creativity is obvious. a feeling requirement for restructure, without out yet the comprehension to know the goal to which i tunnel.

my own art does not leave me fulfilled. i know my process needs to change, refine- and while i feel progress made, i also feel a deep lack of satisfaction. i feel fondness for the produced image, but once faced with the finishing of the work- completely unhappy at the overall feeling of the work.

i suppose this is the difference between fine art, and graphic art meant for inciting public interest. i feel this unified field theory at my tips- but it's been hanging there so many years, out of grasp- and i've yet to produce any (in my view) substantial work.