life.

life has been full of wonderful, horrible, scary, and inspiring things lately.
life is starting over again for me. i'm at my most verbally lucid (always mentally lucid) lately, and though i'm still not sleeping much, and distrustful of my medications- my sleeping schedule is growing more regular. i miss some close old friends, but embrace my new family.

i have a lot of projects underway, but a lot less helpers.
i have a habit of over-killing problem solutions, and futzing projects to death,
i know. i spent the last year trying to figure out a unified field theory for everything we're trying to do, and trying to figure out how to live through life.

sitting down quiet
above, a cloud passes by
the grass grows itself
-jon lehmann
enlightenment poem, 2000